I AM a happy girl
Profile Chang MU-CHEN, 131191 I am just a girl who likes to live in my own world. i LIKE CHOCOLATE,ICE-CREAM,LOLLIPOP,SUSHI,PIZZAS and a lot a lot more. still BELIEVES in FAIRYTALE and SANTA CLAUS. LAUGH and SMILE whole day. HOCKEY is my LOVE.music is my soul.VIOLIN is my ACCOMPANIMENT. — Tagboard Exits Huiqin Sengie Nikki SiHui Pamela Chevy Formspring Hope Initiation Archives November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 September 2012 October 2012 November 2012 January 2013 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Friday, April 30, 2010 What is done cannot be undone! there is no point saying sorry after you had made one feel hurt.. what is done is done.. it cant be undone.. its the scar that left that count.. stop your rubbish messages before i make your life miserable.. just push all the blame to me and you two can enjoy?dream on!! i not easy to bully..sorry you had pick the wrong person to vent your anger on.. Tuesday, April 27, 2010 orange day:D 26 april.. i dont know why the photo so small.. but nvm..so this is the five of us.. see the choco fondu and the ice-cream puff..hahaha:D nice~ this is the pizza..i like also..:D this is the choco fondu close up.. (TWINNY DONT BE HUNGARY WHEN YOU SEE THIS..HAHAHAHA:D) so yesterday was orange day..it is a day that the five of us meet up.. so wanted to have dinner at white tangerine.. but they are close on monday.. so in the end felfelfel bring us to one dessert shop..its nice..super nice.. (coach and pam we shall go there one day too..) ok so we talk and eat ..i like everything they ordered.. in the end all of them was so full..i finished the small chocolate cake myself..with little help from huiqin and mal..hahahahahaha:Dnext time i want go there again.. i wonder when will they put up our photo..hahahaha:D i must exercise today to burn off all the calorie i ate last night..it was a chocolate dinner..hahahaha:D feel so honoured:D muchen: mumu, really learnt alot from you too. from you never give up spirit, to everything in the pitch.i really hope that when after i graduate, i could come back and help up you girls.sad to not be able to play with you all but i'll support you girls all the way.(: be strong, whatever you are going thru, think it as a test.and when you look back you will see how strong you where to pass thru this hard time.:D thank you pam..you make me feel special..but i need to confessed that i once misunderstood you..i didnt know i can have impact in other people life..so thank you for making me feel worth it..:D Sunday, April 25, 2010 is it really unsinkable? people say titanic was unsinkable.. people believe that titanic wont sink.. no matter what happen it will stand strong.. but in the end it sank..right to the bottom of the sea..why? some say because titanic is not the strongest ship.. but rather friendship..it will go through thick and thin.. even if it is thunder storm the ship still sail on..until the storm is over..and the sun is up again.. but is friendship really the strongest ship?i dont know..maybe some ships are really strong..but some are not.. some looks pretty but some not..but i know the ship has a hole now.. and it is filling up with water lots of water..will the ship sink into the ocean just like titanic?or the sailors on the ship will repair it on time? i dont know..but i guess i will hold on to the life vest..so even if anything happen i wont die..sorry to be selfish..but i am not giving up my life vest because there is only one on board.. sad but no regrets.. went down for match last night.. the game was against holland..it was tough somehow.. we lost..3-0..it shouldnt be the result.. we could actully draw it by 0-0 or even win it by 2 goals..hais..what can i do?its over.. i learn a lot of things from yesterday game.. my mentally had grow..i become more mature.. not so childish..i wont get pissed so easily..and i learn some stick work..like really understand how it works.. i get pass two defenders like woohoo~in the D i am gonna to score one goal for my team..but what happen?i did a stupid mistake..like seriously..i tap the ball right into the defender's stick like..hey hey do u want the ball?ok i give it to you.. take it and sweep it out of ur D..AAAHHHHHH!!!!hais..disappointed with myself..DONT REPEAT THAT MISTAKE AGAIN CHANG MU-CHEN! IF NOT YOU GONNA RUN THE TRACK FOR 10 ROUNDS!! hais..but i still got one doubt that i still dont understand.. we use 3 goals to learn a lesson.. Friday, April 23, 2010 dont take it for granted i am considerate..but are you? i dont think so..you better dont take it for granted.. because i am really taking a BIG step back..if i really cant take it.. then i think its the end of everything.. i will make sure i wont suffer alone.. i will make everyone life miserable.. people may think i am evil or WHAT-SO-EVER..but i dont care.. because is you who make me change.. and you who force me to act like this.. if there is a chance i will let you taste your own medicine..for sure..and you will know how hard it is.. i think everything is BULLSHIT!! i dont believe it anymore.. busy!! my timetable is out..and it sucks to the max ah!! i had lab on tue,wed and thur.. all my lesson start at 9AM.. so help out at the cca booth.. there are alot of girls who wrote down their names but dont know they coming not.. eventough helping at the cca booth is boring and hot but i think is sort of worth it..hahaha..(right sihui?):D the new comers did come for training on thursday..so i was ask by coach to teach them the basics..so i thaught them.. coach say i taught them well and they are picking up fast..:Dhappy:D..cos is like the 满足感 that you feel..:D then my team mates were like looking at me and laughing at me..make me shy only..hahahaha:D then our coach make us run the ribbon thingy again..three sets of it..then we proceed with games lor.. didnt go for training today..because of lesson then i couldnt make it..hais..there is game tmr at delta 6pm against the holland..excited..good luck to all of us okay..we will play as one and win the game..:D coach not coming down because he go malacca for friendly match..but nvm.. Monday, April 19, 2010 WHAT THE HELL!! so now i am in school.. its only 9.30AM..because my teacher told me there is tutorial today.. and i got a lecture from her because i msg her at an ungodly hour..so now the tutorial is cancelled..so here i am..i need to even wait til like 2pm for my lesson to start..like WTH!! and i waited for the bus to sch like damn long lah.. luckily i never took taxi to school..if not i really will go crazy..seriously WHAT THE HELL is the only words in my mind now..i wake up so early for nothing lah..hais.. NOW I GOT NOTHING TO DO!!hais~ Saturday, April 17, 2010 WE WON:D Met jenny to go CCAB together.. today's match was against IA.. thought it was gonna be a tough one.. but actually not really..we got alot of chance to score..but we missed it..hais.. so wasted..but when the game was about to end jenny score a goal..hahaha:D so we won 1-0. i think through all this game i played i think i somehow got grow up abit..as in not as childish as before..because i used to angry when i am playing on the field..easily get provoke by the opponents..but today i managed to have a calm mind even though they try to make me angry.. but in the end i am not affected but rather make them angry.. hahahahaha:D happy only:D ok then mathirah got a yellow card.. hais..and delia got a green card..hais..the team like alot people got carded..hahahaha:Dthen the IA damn dirty sia..got this stupid girl who put her stick in between my legs and hooked me..then i fell then the girl fall on me like nobody buisness and then it come the second girl falling on me..WTH!!and then my hand was injured..i shouted.. but the stupid umpire never give the ball to me lor..hais..:( but who cares..we win in the end..:D coach match was cancelled cos of the weather.. i dont know if i hurt my left wrist..:( next game against hollandse club.. i swear all of them are damn tall.. i walked past them once..they really freaking tall.. they make me feel like i am a dwarf lah.. so everyone take care we shall fight again next week.. and we gonna win again.. (1,2,3..RECS!!) training training and training.. Went SRC training yesterday.. reach there like 6plus 7..?i guess so.. then we went for warm up and eveyrthing.. play passing before the training starts.. but i think yesterday was damn humid that after a while we are like sweating like mad.. i got problem hitting on the run..hais.. there is a match against IA later at 6pm.. pray that no one will be injured.. am excited for the match..dont know why.. i want to win later..wish me luck!!:D and good luck coach for your match later too~:D its not your fault so please stop saying sorry to me.. if not i feel like i am the one who is at fault.. i need time..i dont know how long.. because the thought of talking to you or replying him make me feel sick and disgusted..i dont know why.. maybe because i am afraid.. anw i wont force you to choose..so you two can have each other.. i still got other people out there..and so if anything happen i dun want other people to think that is me who hai you two or whatever shit.. i have enough.. Friday, April 16, 2010 your fault or my fault? NOW TELL ME WHAT TO DO.. YOU ARE THE ONE WHO TOLD ME THAT IT TOOK TWO HANDS TO CLAP.. SO I TRIED TO BUILD BACK THE BRIGDE.. AND WHAT DID YOU DO?!YOU DESTROY IT WITH YOUR BARE HANDS..DO YOU THINK ITS EVEN FAIR? LET ME TELL YOU!! YOU SAID YOU DIDNT GET THE CHANCE TO TALK TO HER FOR ONE WHOLE NIGHT!SO WHAT?BIG DEAL?THEN I DIDNT REALLY HAVE THE TIME TO TALK TO HER FOR THE WHOLE HOLIDAY THEN WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? I DID NOTHING AND I GET THIS TYPE OF TREATMENT..WHY DIDNT YOU SCOLD SENGIE AND SIHUI THEY WERE ALSO SAYING ABOUT IT IN THE AFTERNOON?IS IT BECAUSE YOU THINK I AM OKAY TO BE BULLIED?THEN I AM SO SORRY THAT YOU ARE SO WRONG..WHAT I REACT TODAY IS NOT THE REAL ME..I JUST DONT WANT HQ TO BE IN A HARD SPOT.AND I DIDNT EVEN SPEAK A WORD TO DEFEND MYSELF FROM WHAT YOU SAID..I JUST KEPT QUIET.. BUT THEN YOU SHOUTED AT ME THE SECOND TIME..I WANTED TO SHOUT BACK AT YOU..BUT I DIDNT..ITS NOT BECAUSE I AM SCARED..IS BECAUSE I KNOW HQ WILL BE STUCKED IN THE MIDDLE..SO I DECIDED TO WALK AWAY..AND WHAT DID YOU SHOUT?AND THE REASON BECAUSE YOU SHOUTED AT ME WAS YOU VERY DULAN OF YOUR DRAGONBOAT THINGY..I ALSO DULAN WHEN HQ JUST WALK AWAY WHEN I AM TALKING TO HER..DID I EVEN SAY ANYTHING ABOUT IT?THEN IF I UNHAPPY I GO OUT ON THE STREET TO KILL PEOPLE?IS THAT WHAT YOU ARE TRYING TO TELL ME?TELL ME IS IT FAIR?I AM NOT EVEN YOUR WHOEVER AND YOU DARE TO SHOUT AT ME..EVEN MY MUM DONT DO THAT TO ME..WHO ARE YOU TO SHOUT AT ME?I AM DAMN PISSED..AND I HATE TO BE TREATED LIKE THIS..AND I HAVE MAKE IT CLEAR HERE..SO I THINK THERE IS NO NEED TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING..AND YOU CAN HAVE HER..I AM NOT GONNA FIGHT WITH YOU ANYMORE..YOU CAN HAVE IT TO YOURSELF..SO DONT EVER SHOUT AT ME AGAIN..THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY.. rain rain go away~ had training today..as usual.. just that today start at 4.30pm.. because coach got friendly so need to leave early..so we had to train earlier.. i thought it would be damn hot..but in the end it rain again..why is it everytime we have training it will rain?i dont understand.. so we played the ladder game again..haha..i like it!! it is super fun:Dthen the rain became heavier..my mood just sank..cos i wanted to have proper training..you may think that i am crazy..but i am not..i want to be be prepared..:D so the rain did become smaller..so we went to the pitch and play.. haha..played monkey..hahaha:Dthen we play a new game..it was great..:Dcoach went off..so we continued ourselves..then we decided to call it a day..but i feel like i never like really exercise so i decided to run 2.4km..hahaha:Ddont say i am mad..cos i am not.. then i ask my GL to run with me..they very good eh..pei me run a few rounds.. THANKS TO: SEAN,KA MING,SHAWN(xiao pang),SENGIE and SIHUI(twinny) hahahaha:Ddid complete the the 2.4km before the time is up:Ddamn happy.. feel like i am skinnier..hahaha:D then bad things start to happen..FUCK!i dont want to spoil this post so i will post another one.. say me lame..but who cares.. Tuesday, April 13, 2010 training going training alone later.. learn to be strong when i am alone.. i am gonna be strong.. and i will be strong.. this is me.. i will fight hard for coming match.. this sat game gonna be a tough one.. but am ready..woohoo~bring it on man.. fight to the very last sec..because you dont know when miracles will happen.. it may happen at the very last sec before the whistle blow..:D good luck to me..:D now my life have only hockey eat sleep work eat sleep hockey eat sleep work.........but i am happy enough le.. at least i am occupied..:D i am not weak!! Sunday, April 11, 2010 WHATEVER!! i am not gonna care anymore.. you shall do what you like and dont care about me..because it doesnt really matters anymore..it doesnt make any difference too..sorry to be so straight forward but this is my true feeling..i really dont know how to communicate with you le..it is so hard to get your attention.. other people might think that i am jealous of you or what.. but i am not..i am happy with the way i am now.. i guess different people have different priorty.. Saturday, April 10, 2010 STUPID GREEN CARD!! went for club training last night.. then all thanks to mathirah.. she gave me a blue black on my leg.. hahahaha..i know she didnt did it on purpose.. hahaha..or did you?:D very little people from division one went.. so felt kind of weird..but nvm.. had division 1 match today..waited for jenny they all for damn long lah..hais..we were late.. but pam were even more late..hahahaha:D today's match was against NYP..thought we couldnt make it..but still maintained a positive thinking.. because you never know what will happen in the 60 mins of game..we might just be lucky and win the game.. so i gave my 100% when i am playing..so we won.. i forgot the score..but we won..its not lucky..all of us really did work hard for it..and my handsome coach came down for the match..:D me was super duper happy..*smiling* but during the match i got a GREEN CARD!damn it..but who cares.. not a yellow card jiu ok liao..hahahaha:Dbut was really angry about it.. so i ask for a sub as i am not in a calm mind i couldnt play.. dribble pass a few people makes me happy..wanted to try what i practice during training but didnt have the guts..i scared miss..="= and i got knocked in the head..hais.. coach say i need to be faster and selvi say today i play like some pro.. cos when i recieved the ball damn fast-tap and go..didnt stop..i think it was kind of cool..hahaha:D so good job everyone:D train hard for the next match..(against IA) went to watch coach game-premiere league.. it was nice watching the guys play.. as they are really fast..i learn from what i see today..i must make use of the space available and pass back if cant break through..hahaha.. all this are like common sense but sometime i am still committing the same mistakes..not all the time..just SOMETIME..hahahah:D update more soon.. Wednesday, April 7, 2010 i am lost just recently i found out that i am lost.. i am lost somewhere in the world.. soemwhere on the land.. thats what i thought at first.. but i guess i am wrong.. because on land the things you see will stay there forever thay will not go missing.. so i am lost on sea or some island that no one know where the hell is it.. everything is like drifting away from me.. but i dont have the mood to throw the string or grab it back..maybe this is life.. just have to let go things that dont belong to me..or maybe i dont even own anything.. i can say o whatever!!do what you like and dont bother about me..because i am not gonna care anymore..maybe what we said are all rubbish.. sam's disney joke:D so this is sam..hahaha..she is a cute senior of mine.. yah i was talking about her disnay combination right.. ok let me tell you what is disnay to her.. 1.sleeping beauty and the beast (then we said NO!sam its not!) (then she think awhile then say OH YAH is beauty and the beast) and her ans was.. 2.sleeping beauty and the seven dwarf (then we say NO!) (she say oh no no is snow white and the seven dwarf) 3.sleeping beauty has a prince (then we said HELLO~ every disney princess has a prince) then all of us start laughing..then sam finally know that sleeping beauty is just sleeping beauty..hahaha.. Coach is back! had training yesterday..coach is finally back..training was fun..hahaha:Di like.. but they didnt win the razak cup.. then sam was so damn funny.. we were talking about the disney princess.. her answer was so HAHAHAHA..tell you her combination of disney later or tmr.. going work later..sian.1pm to 8pm.. Monday, April 5, 2010 happy:D we finally won a game..we won cresent by 4-0 or 5-0 cant remember.. hahahaha:D but i am happy..but the chemistry between me and daisy was just no there..just unlucky i guess.. the game on saturday was bad..as in cos i lost my temper..becos the tornados were playing so rough then push me, bum me, hit me, hook me..like wth seriously.. mad really mad..plus the umpire also abit blur.. most of the time the umpire raise their hand in different direction like wth..hais..what to do..it is just not my day..gonna train hard so i can improve.. and win more easily..next match against NYP.. hope and pray hard that nothig will happen to me.. hahahaha:Di dont wish to get another "pao"on my cheek.. Friday, April 2, 2010 "ice wash" going work later..muscle did not ache as bad as i thought..but still ache abit..cos yesterday we sort of had a "ice wash"hahahaha:D the feeling was damn shuang lah..four of us shared one tub of water..but it was so cold that my hand went numb..and paul was so good that he ask us to write down our wishlist eh.. like he is santa clause..hahaha..we will also be getting lights at the pitch..woohoo..so good..:D today will be working til 10pm..then tmr meeting sihui and sam.. at 1pm to go for the matches.. our start at 4.30pm..so will be watching them play..good luck to everyone who are playing tomorrow..:D Thursday, April 1, 2010 useless i dont know why.. but i am feeling so strange.. like i am not myself anymore.. i feel so useless..i dont know why.. it wasnt like this in the past.. even if i give my 100% i still dont get what i want..why？why am i lacking behind? i am suppose to be in the lead..but why now? i still dont get it and i never will..why do you get everything you want and i dont?why? can someone answer my question?sometime people say its karma..but i didnt do anything bad.. now i really hate myself..i think my life is so screwed..i think the best song to describe my feeling now is welcome to my life by simple plan.. and i post this is not because i want pity from anyone reading this not even a sec or am i trying to attract anyones attention..i just want to shout it out loud..ok?!i cant take this any longer.. April fool day Today is 1st of april..ok its lame everyone knows it..later still got training..hope is not physical again..hahaha:Dabit lazy..and my muscle are aching..forgot to cool down after training.. went to work ysterday..from 1 to 10.. so tiring lah..but i didnt hit my target..but the number of items i sold did increase..hahaha.. call me a pro!hahaha:Dthere is match on sat and sun.. hope i will perform well..ok thats it update when i come home or tmr.. bye~ oh and my hamster got a new cage..hope she like it..:D the new home-side view(front) top view my hamster in her new home:D
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay